what i mean is i've been thinking lately. just reminiscing about old times. there have been many good times shared. back home, at school, at the park, everywhere. i have begun to realize how much has changed, and how many times i have changed. i havent lived at home in nearly a year, not just for school, but because of staffhouse, and now i'm here in bradford. even though it has been so long, i still miss my old gang more than anyone else. the boys, and dear jessie and kaitlyn. i loved what we all had together. and to think it all started because kaitlyn wouldn't let me go to the huttens bonfire at josh's unless erik admitted our friendship. well it worked. we are friends, and i love him. i really love them all. i love erik and james. i love ian and josh. i love chris. they are my boys. and i miss them to the moon and back.
i dont know if they feel the same way as me, i feel like they do. and the claim they would do anything for me. i hope they love me as i love them, because i really would give them the world. at times i wish i was still at home, seeing them everyday and camping out everyother weekend. no matter what the weather, be it summer heat, or thirty below and in snow, we would do it. to all be together, and have fun together, and drink together.
and my girls are my life. kaitlyn wade keeps me strong and positive, and jessie douglas is my other half. i need them to breathe, and they will be here soon. only three more work days. :) i can't wait, the excitement has stopped time. but its okay, because we have candy necklaces waiting for when they get here.
i do regret some things though. leaving, and not staying where i might belong, and being too scared to try things. but i have faith in us, in all of us, and i know that what has not worked yet, will, eventually get there. all will one day be right and as it should be. whether tomorrow, next year, and in 10 years. we will get there. we will all get through
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