i'm concerned that i will never get what i want. in all honestly, but what, i mean who. it seems to me that i always fall on the short end of the deal. its likely just me, but i feel like i am never the one who is pursued, men don't take interest in me the way that i want them to. i can't think of the last time that i was asked on a date, or even called on a booty-call. well i actually can remember that, it ended quite badly. i often find myself "in love" with different people. guys i meet in class, or at a bar, men i work with, or have known for years. these infatuations that i develop never work out for me. it is never reciprocated. even when i lower my standards, to ensure that i will be able to land the boy of the day, i still fail. its hard when you can't score with the low-standard guy.
all of the unrequited love would not be such a worry if i was being wooed by boys at the same time. but i'm not. if i was, the last time i was laid wouldn't have been four months ago.
the rejection is beginning to make me feel slightly lonely. i've never been in a relationship that meant anything. i wish i had, and i'm willing to keep waiting. i hope that it is sooner rather than later. because i don't know how much longer i can keep up with my patience.
first: I beleive that the adventures of low-standard guy would make a great sitcom
ReplyDeletesecond: you should be able to reach a point where your existence, happiness or what-have you isn't defined by another human being. Reach a point where you would never have to live in someone's shadow.
third: even a pebble can be admired
if its alone.